Happy New Year to all of my friends and family, and to the wonderful people that read my ramblings! I am okay with leaving 2012 behind, and I am looking forward to 2013 being a better year.
A recap of 2012:
After finally deciding to go see a fertility specialist at the end of 2011, 2012 was filled with 5 rounds of Clomid (and 3 unsuccessful IUI's), 2 rounds of Letrazole, a homeopathic remedy (while it has not led to pregnancy yet, I have been able to miss out on getting sick since I took the remedy months ago), and a second opinion. I have been poked and prodded multiple times, been "assaulted" by the lovely dildo cam multiple times, and even had myself cut open to see how I tick. There have been 2 HSG's, dozens of OPK's and HPT's. And a whole lot of tears (with some laughs thrown in, of course, because sometimes these doctor appointments are just downright hilarious).
It was also filled with love and laughter, friends and family, celebration and tragedy. I lost my grandma and my cousin this year...one expected and one incredibly unexpected and way too early in his life. I was able to stand beside my best friend and watch her marry the man of her dreams. The husband and I made more trips home to see family then in the past 4 years combined.
As always, I hope that 2013 brings us the baby we so desire and deserve. There will also be a lot of changes. The husband will be heading off to recruiter school in a few months, and then we will probably be living in yet another place by the end of June. We hope that this new journey will lead us closer to our family for a few years, especially if we are blessed with a child. I would hate for him or her to never get a chance to be close to them.
I allowed myself to be sad last night as I said goodbye to all the dreams that did not come true last year, but today is a day of hope. Hope that this year I will get to experience the magic of pregnancy and childbirth. Hope that this year will be full of births instead of deaths. Hope that this new career move will bring the husband and I even closer together.
Cheers to you all, and thank you for reading. I hope that you will follow me in 2013.
Happy New Year!