I am a compulsive skin picker. I know, that sounds disgusting. It's probably not as bad as it sounds, but it's definitely not a good thing. I pick the skin around my fingernails and my lips, mostly. And then it upsets me to see what I have done to myself, so I try to fix it, which only means more picking. It's unhealthy, and I hate it. I try to stop all the time. And the husband asks me to stop when he is around. But I still do it.
I don't really know why I am writing about this. I just feel like maybe putting it out there will help me to be more aware of it so that I can stop. Please don't judge me. I choose not to be on medication for anxiety, depression, etc...I like to self-treat because I don't believe in being hopped up on drugs. This blog is a sort of treatment for me. Maybe it will help with my anxiety and picking, and maybe it won't. I'm willing to try just about anything to feel better. If I ever do get the chance to be a mom, I don't want to pass any of my craziness on to my little ones. If I am self-assured and confident, maybe they will be too. If I am an anxiety-ridden mess, I don't want them to be that way.
Sorry this was so off-topic. Thanks for reading :)