The first part of my appointment was the boring part where we go over my medical history. I hate repeating my story to doctor after doctor, and I am embarrassed that I didn't keep better records of my medical history from when I was a teenager. When I was younger, I had a few abnormal pap smears. But I was young and dumb and didn't keep track of dates or ever get copies of my records. So I don't remember dates or exact procedures and tests that I had done. It has been quite a few years since my last abnormal pap, but I have worried that the procedures I had done because of them have caused some of the fertility problems I have.
But I digress.
After a lot more waiting, I got to finally meet Dr. M. Boy are the stories true. He is quirky and doesn't really look you in the eye, but I really like him! He is actually really funny and really sounds like he knows what he is talking about. Granted, I felt pretty overwhelmed because he talked really fast. I'm still not exactly sure what the plan is to be honest. All I know is that I am going in on CD3 of my next cycle for some bloodwork, and then a post-coital test after getting a positive OPK. Yep, you read that right. A post-coital test. Now is when the parents may want to skip ahead a paragraph or so. I have avoided this until now because the idea of it is so awkward. Yes, I know that he is a doctor. And trust me, I have had to already undergo plenty of embarrassing moments in this journey. I mean, I have been told exactly when to go home and DTD plenty of times. You would think I wouldn't have any modesty left...but the idea of having to go in and have someone up in my business evaluating what is happening post-coitus is a bit much to think about for me. I guess I will have to learn how to just suck it up though when that time comes. Although finding time to go see a doctor within 2-3 hours after DTD should prove to be interesting to say the least.
Okay, parents you can start reading again. So that is how my first appointment went. I am feeling hopeful, but scared as well. About money, because I will probably be paying out of pocket for most of the services (I saw the price sheet for IVF. If we have to go down that road, it is definitely going to take some creative financing). And about time. I have no idea how I will be able to get the time off from work for the appointments I will have to go to. Especially because they are usually last-minute since I never know when my cycle is going to start or when I am going to ovulate. I think I will have to finally come clean with my boss and let her know what is going on. Having a family is more important to me than this job. Yes, I know having a job is important, especially in this economy. But I will not sacrifice my dream of being a mother.
I do not plan on spending another Christmas without a child (or at least one on the way), so I will do whatever it takes to make that happen!